I was in a dark space and didn’t know it. I thought it was bad luck and that I had to live the life I was living. I felt trapped and was suffering even though outwardly I looked like I had it all together. However, after an honest self -inventory I looked in a mirror and literally said “what is wrong with you?” I was vulnerable and authentic and it was exactly where I needed to be.
Judgment is an atrocity to the soul and it was the pain that I held within that needed attention. I was a trained mental health professional and I didn’t have the answers. I knew my pain was deeper, it was soul pain and I was thirsty for truth.
My friend suggested that I meet her spiritualist and so it began. For the last several years, I have been introduced to a different mindset and learned practices that were aligned to my personal and spiritual philosophies. I had come to realize that I was spiritually sick. I wasn’t tapping into my inner wisdom; no one told me but I felt it. After learning more about the Universe and its power, the truth about love, my reflection in others, and embracing my discomfort with compassion rather than in judgment, the veils began to lift and was able to see what was rather than what I thought I should see. I was becoming actualized.
In the noticing I felt lighter. I began developing healthier relationships, I was less anxious, and my quality of life improved. My life began to unfold in a way I never thought it could. I questioned why I wasn’t t trained in this? If I felt better in couple of sessions; why didn’t I feel whole after talk therapy? The answer to this wasn’t as important than living this journey and walking in my truth.